Ever worry that feeling unmotivated means you can’t be successful?
Maybe you’ve felt majorly motivated by your work, but then a moment comes along where being creative just doesn’t feel like the right move.
Have you felt afraid that this means you don’t have what it takes?
Maybe this isn’t what you’re supposed to be doing?
Maybe super successful people who make the impact you want to make never feel this way… and this is the sign that you came so close, but you’re just not wired to create that vision you’ve been living for?
Living in Canggu this month has been magical, but it’s not real life. It’s a transient place. People are always coming and going at our co-living space.
Coming here has allowed me something that I wasn’t looking for, but something I think might actually be one of the most valuable things we can do as humans every once and again… and that is the ability to push pause on life, to be anonymous, unplugged, and to get a new perspective on life, and the choices that I’ve made, and have yet to make.
As I move forward into my next chapter, I don’t want to just say yes to one path, because things were moving so quickly and it just seemed like the right thing at the time.
Instead, after this month, I feel more aware than ever that there are other things I could choose, and that I’m more consciously thinking about what I might be getting myself into moving forward.
I had goals for projects that I wanted to complete, and I cranked through them my first 10 days here. After that, I really made the commitment to just disappear over here in Bali.
And I think I did a damn good job. I finished a few emails the other day, and I contemplated getting a head start on some things I plan on doing once I get back to NYC in March.
I’m generally a highly motivated person, but I’m telling you. There was NO chance of getting one more damn thing done.
My spirit and body knows what I’m here for. It knows that I crossed the finish line on what I wanted to do work wise.
All I seem to be available for these days, is FUN. Pure fun. Just riding my scooter around the winding roads and getting lost in thoughts.
I can’t put into words all of the things that have been coming up. Joy, sadness, tears that just feel good to get out. A feeling of nostalgia, and lots of excitement just to be doing this and living on the other side of the planet.
It’s almost like there wasn’t time to process every part of my journey in life until I got here, and perhaps it’s all flooding out now.
I know that getting excited about my next project will come. But it hasn’t been here for what feels like a while these past few weeks; it’s not here today, and it likely won’t be for AT LEAST another 5 days.
So I’m not pushing it, and I wanted to share in case you’ve ever worried the way I STILL do when I find myself refusing to get sh** done and do the work.
And if you’ve resisted taking care of not just your body, but your mind and emotions, by REALLY truly making it a priority to just LIVE, please decide how you can make it happen.
Among the full lives that we all live, there sometimes seems to be not nearly enough time to just disappear so we can FEEL, and digest the journey we’re all on.
I knew if I didn’t choose to come to Bali now, that it might have been more difficult in the future.
I’m so glad I did. It’s been one of the best months of my life, hands down.
I’ve become better friends with Mel, and I know that this step of slowing down, is exactly what’s paving the way to move forward in a bigger, better, and more impactful way.
Sending love from Bali. See you back in NYC soon.